Can Someone Help Me?

I used to go to the Illusions of Cook site, but my computer shut down, and now I've lost the site's link.. Does anyone know it?

My Interview With David Cook

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I'm auditioning for Idol season 8 in Kansas City, Missouri, and I could really use some advice!! I promise I am not just one of those people who decide to audition on a whim! I've been singing since I was 3 years old, writing since I was 11, and for the past year, I've been trying to teach myself how to play piano. Music is my life, and I can't tell you how much I want and need this... There are no words to describe how much this means to me.
I auditioned for the show about two years ago and thanks to a jerk of a boss, was up until 1 in the morning when I was already sick and had to wake up three hours later to stand in line! Needless to say, I lost my voice in the middle of the first round of auditions... But I'm not complaining because looking back, I don't think I was ready then, and I'm a strong believer in everything happening for a reason.
But I really, really need some advice.. So anyone who could just listen to my voice and maybe offer some advice, criticism, words of wisdom, warnings of doom... ANYTHING would be greatly appreciated! lol
Thank you!!
-Chelse

Chelse's Songs

"Years"

Years have passed me by
I was alone, and I was fine
I was alone, but I got by,
But I was still alone
Years without your eyes
Seeing through me when I'd lie,
And undoing every tie
That's held me back for all this time

And I'm distracted by the way you smile
Like you know something that I should
Go weak to feel your breath on me
I tell myself if I wanted to walk away from you,
that I could

You took me by surprise
I was fine when I broke down
I was fine there on the ground
But you pulled me up again for more
You took me by the hand
And even now you understand
That even now I can't pretend
That I'm not moved by you

'Cause I'm distracted by the way you smile
Like you know something that I should
Go weak to feel your breath on me
I tell myself that I'll let you go in time, but I know
I never could

Years will set me free
I'm old enough that I believe
That these years will set me free
But you will still remain the best for me



"Only Dust and Photographs"

Some days I try to find them again
When things get really hard
But I think these woods have lost their magic now
And that just seems a shame to me

I hold my arms and notice that
I seem to have grown colder now
In the absence of the fire that has burned me,
What could I expect?

So where am I to go now
That I haven't been before
Cause the road is old and the edges fade
And I don't know how to follow anymore

Please don't go, step back again
I can make you happy too
And make you forget the world ever existed
Beyond my eyes, just me and you

So where am I to go now
Now that you have closed the door
Cause god I'd take it all back if I'd only understood before
That you were sure, you were sure...

So many days now I've tried to find
A way into your heart
Past all the dust and photographs
I only see a memory of melodies

Cause it's the only thing I'll ever be
Just another distant memory
Like the woods that I am walking through
That no longer bring me peace but pain
Still I kind of like the subtlety

And I'm sure I'll try to find you again
When things get really hard
Cause these woods have lost their magic now
And that just seems a shame to me...


"How's your heart been?"

Tell me how's your heart been lately
'Cause honestly, I couldn't say.
Are you happy with the life you're living,
Forgetting me along the way?

Well, for a while now I've been trying
Every way that I can find
To appear to be moving on so nicely,
And get you off my tired mind.

'Cause you've been in my thoughts so often
It's becoming quite cliche'.
I've secretly been clinging to you,
Even as I'm pushing you away.

Is it too much to ask for you
To pretend to not be fine?
Could I just steal you for a moment?
I'm sure that she won't mind.

You know what, just forget I said that
It's better you don't call
'Cause you're making it much easier
To make sure my will won't fall next time.


"Sorry" -old song-

Those two words just aren't enough.
"I'm sorry" came too late for us.
I won't wish you any harm or pain,
But friendship dies when there's no trust.

It's not like I gave you no chance
But left that piece and walked away.
You can only be kicked so many times
Before you learn to get out of the way..
Well, there's nothing more for us to say...

Those tears I was supposed to cry
Surviving just one more goodbye
I'm stronger than I thought I could be
You cleared my eyes so I could see
That those words I was supposed to buy
Surviving just one last failed try
And my story goes beyond this ending.

Did you expect my life to stop?
There's no need for sympathy..
A long, rough climb and then a drop,
But that won't be the end of me.

So much of me was lost to you,
But you can not be blamed completely.
I was just as guilty, I know it's true..
I offered all my heart too freely.
And that's the end of that...

Those tears I was supposed to cry
Surviving just one more goodbye
I'm stronger than I thought I could be
You cleared my eyes so I could see
That those words I was supposed to buy
Surviving just one last failed try
And my story goes beyond this ending.

The signs were always within our grasp
And we chose to ignore
It hurt that I wasn't harder to lose,
But I've more than closed that door.

Sorry if my words seem cold,
Please don't missunderstand me,
No anger hides behind these words
I know now what can't and can be...
And we're both better off, I see now...

Those tears I was supposed to cry
Surviving just one more goodbye
I'm stronger than I thought I could be
You cleared my eyes and helped me see
That those words I was supposed to buy
Surviving just one last failed try
You cleared my eyes and helped me see
That I could come out stronger
And no longer will I sacrifice myself
for a guy...

Showing off my love of music!

My first (and most likely my last) tattoo! (it's on my hip)